Thursday, June 11, 2009

my albatross...

relationships are like fire...you need to keep stoking them...one small nap and the fire turns to cinders...the cinders DEMAND a breath..as if oxygen were THEIR right..not the creator's...it's nauseating to keep stoking the fire...worst of all, the fire forgets..and forgets at a speed faster than that of the proverbial hare....heck! even the hare stopped to rest...

humans have forever shown a tendency to feel pampered...and you know what, the pamperers NEED to rest at times for heaven's sake!!! sillence is a right!! It's a birthright!! but no..one ought to speak, one must in fact... how else woulld the fire keep burning...but wait a moment...what if the weather changes? what if the creator of the fire does NOT need warmth anymore? would it be ethical to stub out the fire? wouldn't the fire have the right to resist? you bet it would- IF it had a conscience...the creator would have an obligation to heed its conscience..but hang on...if it were that the created fulfilled its obligation, clung patiently to the cinders when the creator slept, went tender when the flames became ferocious, soothed the senses when the weather changed...wouldn't it be THEN that the fire HAD a conscience??? if at all times, it kept just its one trait alive-fire- would it then have a conscience? NO..it would remain a creation then..an unearthly being of a an unearthly dimension, devoid of any earthly bound significances..and as such, devoid of any moral or ethical (earthly definitions both) peripheral significances. but alas!!!!!

things change...but to compare the change or to label it, one must have the bases ready. for without the bases, change itself is meaningless. the intellectual uncouth, unfortunately, do not realise this simple dictum.....

fight your own battles, and people assume you don't have any...heck!! if they have their own publicised ones in the meantime, they even blame you......

so brothers and sisters, if you want to have a so called 'healthy' image in the society, please shout out your problems, even if you know they are going to fall on ears that are going to, through their mouths in turn, shout a lot of meaningless help by BEING PRESENT...letting the fire realise that they are there to stoke it..baah!!

i once told myself that i'll have to fight it out in my own way.  believe me, iwas so proud to have had the realisation that for at least the next ten years i kept boasting about it...and then....well i knew that the realisation was supposed to have made me react EXACTLY the opposite way!!! i was hated, despised, and even ostracised for my boasts fort his entire period. now i dont talk about my problems..and suddenly people have started liking me.... :) ...grand....

so it doesn't matter what you feel. people, even your friends, are interested in hearing what they are interested in hearing. tell them a story that would make them feel that they should help, and that's all they want. Napoleon had learnt it at 23. he was wise. he had a mission. he could be ruthless, he could afford to be ruthless. he had fed his 'friends' with what they wanted to be fed with. i do not have that luxury...i became ruthless with my servings instead...i deprived my friends from their so called 'right' to help me...that's my blasphemy...that's my 'cross' to bear...

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